well... im bored to death as usually and home alone yet AGAiN. hmm what to write about? well, schools so... BLEH. i thought it would be SO chill compared to junior year but its not, im actually working harder because i signed up for harder classes this year. but hey im working hard to that GREAT successful future! hahah so corny, anyways...my family sold the restaurant place in plaza.. "feels SO weird seeing different people there that's not us!" hahah HUH vilette. sorry my friends out there NO MORE FREE FOOD hahaha no more "free sisig". i went to plaza the first day the other people took over to say bye to my friends. maan i just WiSHED "my destiny" (hahaha i still remember that) but anyway, i wished SO much and SO hard that we would still be there when he starts working again at the ahem ahem GRREAT STEAK hahaha...well looks like ill just have to wait till holiday season to see him once again, and maybe THIS time we'll have another actual conversation. ummm got stuck in some BAD situations that day and wish they didnt happen. didnt get to say bye to that certain someone, seemed like he didnt care after that one thing happenned. i HATE it when people have multiple personalities... like one minute hes SO nice and sh*t and then the next its like he doesnt even know im there.. WTF!?!? anyways ENOUGH about plaza im tired of that place WAY too many memories and people i now know that work there im gonna take a break from that place and start going to the chula vista mall or some place else haha...umm what else what else what else... ohhh HOMECOMING... well after going through a buncha sh*t i guess im gonna go stag. not what i wanted but i realized its probably better cause then you get to dance with whoever you want. SH**T i STILL want someone to take pictures with and that crosage though! hahahah SOO many choices and yet left with none. LMAO how LAME.. yes i admit im SO LAME hahahah. but who cares.. i got my dress and its the perfect height to "get low" in hahaha HUH sharyl and jen LMAO... making me get low in the small @$$ dressing room LMAO!!! hahahahah hmm what else.. OH "my husband" hahah i dont know about that. maybe he IS avoiding me because hes trying to "avoid temptation" i mean it makes sense the rules ARE hes not supposed to like anyone at all and that hes supposed to concentrate on his mission so ohh well i dont know.. WRONG timing just WRONG TIMING but oh well as it always comes down to "if it was meant to be, it will happen".. umm i guess i have nothing else to say so.. im off to read for stupid english lit...with a hug and a kiss im out like this MUAH <3 rae
time for an..."emo" blog haha gosh i feel so... yeahh...
taken from my AP Psych. notebook/journal:
Today i had to buy the hula grass skirts for the young women and i, with our own money. Tonight my brother was like "Oh mom said you guys got skirts can we borrow them?" Of course i was like no.... i mean i was PiSSED. the YOUNG WOMEN paid with their own money for grass skirts for them to use. if the young men wanted to use them also then they shouldve pitched in money themselves. im sorry if you can sense the great anger in me. its just, its really tough being in my situation in my family. just cause im the oldest my parents, ESPECiALLY my mom, think IM the bad one no matter WHAT THE H*LL I DO. it feels like might as well be bad cause thats what youre gonna get blamed for anyway. they dont even give me a chance or take the time to listen to my side.and what sucks even more is my brother f*cking takes the opportunity of my down and sucks up to my parents... but STILL whats even MORE worse than that is THEY DONT EVEN SEE IT!!! and i do.so when my brother and i are arguing my mother straight up takes his side and it ends up being me alone against the whole family. my family says i care more about my friends than i do them. im sorry to say but i must agree. i mean why love or even try SO hard to love something SO much when it wont love you that much back in return. i think i learned a meaning of love by the example of my friends NOT family. thats why i take advantage, or at least try with the SO little time my parents give me, that i have with my friends. I take advantage of the time to be happy.
hey guys... well im hecka bored right now so yeahhh i decided to blog. ummm... this past week ive been busy with hula hula teaching the church gals cause were performing on saturday. its been pretty cool i got to see my girlfriend vilette most of the days this week! hahahah i ALWAYS have fun with that girl... whether were at the mall looking at a bunch of guys or even if were in the middle of nowhere in the grand canyon hahaha LOL. as for the uhh "love life" nobody really actually yeahh hahaha you know theres ALWAYs a guy in rae annes heart hahah. all i have to say is... hes something ive been waiting for, for SO long... i mean he fullfills all my standards AND i dont know dude its just WHOA. but its different now as ive learned the hard way imma take this one slow and TRY to get to know him first before i actually say i LIKE him. buttummmm... yeah thats basically about it. friends life. well the only friend ive been hanging out with lately is my girlfriend vilette hahahah other than that... havent been hanging out with the P&H lately hmmm i wonder WHY hahahaha. oh well but its all good i guess.. not my time and effort why try to force something to happen thats not gonna happen? people can just be SO stubborn and dont understand. anyways enough of that sh*t. as for the family same ol same ol. a fight here a fight there.. a good laugh here a cry there, the usual. umm the "business" i dont know its alright i guess we decided to sell it but were not sure when were gonna stop working there. well i guess imma leave it at this... i gotta wake up early for tomorrow. wish me luck! with a hug and a kiss im out like this MuaH <3rae
SO my song dude... if you dont understand just ask...
Ahhhh... Lagi na lang nag-iisa Lagi na lang nalulumbay Umaasang sana may magmahal Hanggang kailan kaya akong maghihintay
Kailan kaya puso ay iibig Kailan kaya matitikman ng isang halik Kailan kaya madarama ang isang paglalambing Nais malaman, Nais maramdaman Kailan kaya Ahhhh...
Sana ngayon naghihintay Sana ngayon ay masaya Iibigin mo kaya ang isang tulad ko Hanggang parangarap nang iba at lahat nang ito
Kailan kaya puso ay iibig Kailan kaya matitikman ang isang halik Kailan kaya madarama ang isang paglalambing Nais malaman, Nais maramdaman Kailan kaya
Kailan kaya puso ay iibig Kailan kaya matitikman ang isang halik Kailan kaya madarama ang isang paglalambing Nais malaman, Nais maramdaman Kailan kaya Ahhhh...
ok... whats been going on in rae's BORiNG life... well, i came back from young women girls camp (july 5-9 girls ages 12-18) came back a real churchy girl and changed for the good. im not really churchy anymore but im still changed. girls camp its was alright, but YCL camp was better. after i came back my lifes been basically home, work, church, home, work, church. ive been seeing a LOT of my church friends lately and now i truly miss my friends FRIENDS especially my P.I.M.P.S.A.N.D.H.O.E.S we need to go out ALL of us so far since ive been back ive only seen paolo and the BEST. paolo took me to work one day and duuude i SO wasnt ready but it was a good thing cause "i wasnt supposed to look good that day cause HE wasnt working that day" hahah. umm... this past sat i had my first ADVENTURE/i actually had some fun with church friends but not FUN FUN like i do only with the P&H. ok so on saturday was a YCL get together thingy. hhahah me and vilette didnt feel like going buti had to at least show myself so that i could tell my mom that i went. so we went got dropped off by my mom to vilettes house and got picked up from her house by kristi and sara. then we went to the party in her dads racing vehicle. crrazy sh*t we would turn and like be on 3 and sometimes only 2 wheels. the get together "party" was kinda lame.. vilette, kristi, sara, and i left. dropped off sara home then vilette and i THOUGHT off to chuck e cheese to see my BEST. hahah so it went like this. sara left early cause she had somewhere to go with her other friends. kristi left early cause she had a date with this guy i know from work name marcus. marcus wanted me to go too cause he "didnt want to give kristi the wrong impression" if it was just them two alone. i told kristi to call him and see if there were any other guys going and he didnt know. so i told kristi well... if its just him could you just take me and vilette to chuck e cheese and she was like yeah. so then we stopped at a gas station got some gum and then we were off. suddenly i found myself at the guitar center meeting up with marcus. me and vilette were all looking at each other laughing cause we thought we were going to chuck e cheese. so vilette and i ended up going with kristi on her date with marcus. we went to play pool some pretty funny sh*t i didnt feel like playing so i did stupid stuff. duude vilette homie if you werent with me that day and night i dont know what i wouldve done hahaha with out you "my girlfriend" i wouldnt have had fun hahah. the date was getting pretty boring and lame. so vilette and i left and went for a walk and found out where the grossmont center was hahah. then as we came in kristi and marcus came out and we ended up leaving to chuck e cheese FINALLY hahah. so we got off the monster truck and vilettes all the hot guy i was talking about is working at the door. and we come in and he lets us in and i was just like DAYYYUMMM homie IS fione. hahhahah then i saw the best jen said our hellos and what not. then im like so jen.. who's this "cutie" youre talking about and shes like ohh hes there and she pointed to the same guy vilette was talking about. woww he a CUTiE alright. hes not really hot/handsome/sexy hes... CUTE but like REALLY cute. hahhaha.. so then yeah... "cutie" ended up giving vilette and i some tokens and we went to play. took a pictured of our hair and decided to throw it away hahah. as i was walking this kid was all move lady and i was like whoaa kids these days in chuck e cheese haha. when we got done playing i was tripping cause i didnt know if id make it on time home. so i asked if vilette called christian and guess she did after i asked. as we waited for christian to come i met one of jens managers i think and hes a cool man. then vilette got a call and she was all ohh theyre here and i saw these 2 guys came in and jens all oooh im telling meeting up with guys. said my hellos met christians younger brother jr and yeah... hes OK hahhaha huh vilette. so then we headed home... me and vilette were hungry so we stopped by jack in the box and got 2 chicken sandwhiches with my "sticky" money hahahaha... jr payed the 13 cents for tax how CHEAP dude hahhahah jk jk then headed home got dropped off christian tricked me made me think my parents were right behind us SH**T floser hahaha... umm so that was the most adventure i had so far since ive been back. ummm what else ohh yes of course gotta talk about the love life.. well NOTHING right now.. but i did learn some thing VERY wise and i learned it the hard way "dont think just DO" maan i feel SO stupid.. i shouldve done something.. well with a hug and a kiss im out like this MuAH* <3
